Last year, in September 2016, I blogged about my Aunt or my Tita Malou. She had just gotten surgery for a tumor in her brain. I stayed in Canada until the first week of December 2016. Most of the time spent being with Tita Malou in the hospital after her surgeries, and helping her adjust back to life at home after being in the hospital.

I was able to spend her birthday with her (At the time, we didn’t know it would be her last on this earth, but I thank God that I was there to spend it with her.). It was just a joyous occasion, celebrating God’s faithfulness in her life.



Before returning to the Philippines, I remember her telling me advice and stories that I will remember for the rest of my life. Maybe someday, I’ll share it, but for now, I’ll keep it to myself.

On the morning of February 28, 2017, B.C. Canada time, My Tita Malou finally rested and joined her CREATOR. She finally received complete healing and rest with the LORD after more than two years of battling with cancer.


I had a feeling that last year was the last time I would ever see her on this Earth. I did keep praying that God would heal her from this disease that is on her body. And in God’s perfect way, He answered me and my family’s prayers. He healed her. He cleansed her from any sickness, and welcomed her into His Kingdom.

I’ll miss her dearly. But I know I’ll see her again. I’m comforted in the fact that she is now with Jesus and has reunited with my grandfather. 🙂


I’ll remember going with her to her chemo and radiation treatments. How she would mock the wigs that were on display at the cancer center. How she would always ask if I was okay waiting for her. How she would laugh at her own story and ask me if I had any suitors or a boyfriend yet…(someday Tita…not yet..hahaha)


With my brother Nathan during her hospital stay

I’ll remember her stories about when she worked at the bank, traveled countries, served at her church, adjusting to Canadian life, etc…


I’ll remember how she didn’t see cancer as a hurdle for her to serve the Lord. She volunteered with me at the DVBS (Daily Vacation Bible School at their church. I saw her passion for kids.



I saw her clinging on to the Word of God, her daily devotions was an amazing part of her day.

She was an honest but loving woman, and I’m thankful to God that gave me her as my Aunt. I’ll miss you Tita. Thank you for believing in me. I’ll see you again. Love you.



Fangirling Diaries #1: The Hamiltome

This is more of a photo diary about things I fangirl about! First up is the Hamiltome! It is an in depth, behind the scenes look at everything about the musical Hamilton, created by Lin-Manuel Miranda. If you haven’t checked the musical out, I highly recommend listening to the soundtrack. (especially if you can’t get tickets, since they’re pretty much always sold out…)

I dream to be able to watch the musical one day, but for now I’m content with the soundtrack and Hamiltome.

#jeejaiwrites: Listening Heart

listening heart

Three years ago I wrote a poem for my Literature class in college. I came up with a free verse poem that was a learning experience for me. It gave me the drive and the passion to want to write more. It was a vulnerable poem for me, because it showed my frustration at myself. And so here I present to you, my poem entitled, “Listening Heart…”

I look back at yesterday

and think of all the things that could have been.

I should have been more…

I could have cared more…

I should have felt more…

I could have listened more…


I couldn’t bring back the past…so instead I told myself to learn…and learn I did.

It was not an easy road…but then again, what is easy?

Letting myself down was not the answer…

All I had to do was open my heart and my ears to what they had to say…


I just shut up and listened…

I heard them talking about life and its ups and downs

I laughed with them at their jokes and cried with them at their sad stories…

I realized that there was more to life than blabbing on and on about myself.

I simply had to listen…


The ears and the heart are a wonderful combination…together they hear and feel things around them that may not be so obvious in the first place…


When you listen…


…you learn more…

…you understand more…

…you care more…

…you know how to help more…

I turned away from my should-have-been-could-have-been mouth…and opened my ever present…Listening Heart


Thank you for reading!